how do you let go of the only thing you’ve ever wanted to hold onto
I keep you with me, tightly in the palm of my hand
and on the nights I miss you
I clench my fists so tight it feels like someones stabbing my palm
I have to let go
but everytime I open my hand
you come to me
and you close my fist back up again
and i lie still
as you run your fingers up and down my spine
and you kiss my face lightly
and I close my eyes as I let you take me
and when the sun rises and i’m alone
I clench my fist
clinging to your memory
I clench to your memory tighter and tighter
but what do I do when my palm starts to bleed? the tighter I clench the bloodier my palm gets and
i lie still
in a puddle of my blood and my tears
and I close my eyes
and I unclench my fingers and start to open my hand
but this time, you don’t close it
my blood scares you
my tears scare you
and i lie still
as I open my hand
and I let go
and my tears run and my blood bleeds through
but my soul does something else
my soul
begins to fly
and i lie still
as my soul flies and my body drowns in my blood and my tears and my hand sits, unclenched
and i rise
and i look down at myself
and i smile as i see my unclenched fist
and i gasp
as my soul flies back to me
and i rise
