here filling my head with wonder and romance

a hopeful love

meanwhile my next partner diligently walks on eggshells

much too messy those emotions

he tightens his mask and pushes them all to the back.

———-

i’ll put on my mask and make my way to him

we’ll talk a little

maybe words will flow

maybe we’ll go straight to the pillow

we’ll thrust and touch

moving, longing, empty, sweaty

masks slipping, soul dehydrating

 

the story will climax

we’ll fall back into limbo

he’ll roll to the left and i to the right

NOOOOOOOTTTTTT AGAAAAAAINNNNNNN i’ll scream in my head

pick up my love

leave my mask

goodnight

——————–

i have reached the top of the mountain of temporary pleasures and am vastly uninterested in what i have found

the loneliness has revealed…

masks will only attract other masks

authenticity will attract more authenticity

……………………………………………………………………………………………….how will they find me if i hide?