here filling my head with wonder and romance
a hopeful love
meanwhile my next partner diligently walks on eggshells
much too messy those emotions
he tightens his mask and pushes them all to the back.
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i’ll put on my mask and make my way to him
we’ll talk a little
maybe words will flow
maybe we’ll go straight to the pillow
we’ll thrust and touch
moving, longing, empty, sweaty
masks slipping, soul dehydrating
the story will climax
we’ll fall back into limbo
he’ll roll to the left and i to the right
NOOOOOOOTTTTTT AGAAAAAAINNNNNNN i’ll scream in my head
pick up my love
leave my mask
goodnight
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i have reached the top of the mountain of temporary pleasures and am vastly uninterested in what i have found
the loneliness has revealed…
masks will only attract other masks
authenticity will attract more authenticity
……………………………………………………………………………………………….how will they find me if i hide?